Usually things are hunky-dory from this perspective. This is, after all, a highly edited version of our lives. The kids look so cute! And do cute things! And aren't they adorable! This had the nice little side effect of implying that - We're super-parents!
I've begun an attempt at posting at least once a week here (lucky you) and am trying to get it started mid-week so I'm not feeling pressured by the week's end. So here I am at the computer, attempting. Anna is sleeping. We've had a full day thus far: visit to the gym, loaded up on new books at the library and registered for the Summer Reading Program. We've played outside, setting up the tent, whilst I tidied the patio space and they used the hose to wash down... well, pretty much anything I said was ok. Good times.
And yet, here it is: Sometimes my kids do not do cute things! I'm not a super-parent! And today especially, I'm feeling it. And writing about it, it would seem.
Molly is flipping my hair and I've already told her three times not to touch the keyboard (saving now...). There have been two waters spilled and one mouth washed out (not with soap) since I don't want to wait and see where Crayola marker blue saliva ends up. Newly planted pots have been up ended and the CD liner notes that Jonas loves to follow while we listen to Snacktime was ripped apart by his sister. Snack has been requested six times in the last hour and I've issued an edict that if anyone asks again THERE WILL BE NO SNACK! Something I'm sure to regret if they actually force me to follow through, but it speaks to my short fuse. And last night I found myself SO MAD when Anna woke up crying around midnight, I think I'm finally ready to cut her off at night. Guess that isn't so nuts: she's almost 14 months. I'm amazed at myself that it's lasted this long! But the fact that I felt absolutely no shred of compassion for the night nursing child isn't something I wish to cultivate.
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Molly has moved on to entertain herself now. I will get them popsicles and crackers in a few minutes and get Mr. Mighty Machines to babysit for a bit while I attempt to bring some order to the kitchen and living room.
I might even gain some perspective soon. You know, recall that the days are long but the years are short (thanks Gretchen Rubin, for that one). Know that my kids are a wonder in my life and that spills and clutter aren't the end all and that tape and glue cover a multitude of sins. Believe that our lives matter today and tomorrow and tomorrow because God says so. Hope.
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